BRAVO on the events of this week....

I have no motivation. I spent the whole day on my feet fulfilling my duties I have set aside for months now. It's nice knowing that it's done though. Plus I worked out so hard yesterday that my whole body is effing SORE.

You'd think I've had alot of time on my hands to conquer these projects I've made for myself. WELL, thats just it. I DO. I officially got fired from Rock Bottom yesterday. Yup, I'm finally fucking FREE for once. I've wanted to quit that place anyway. The mood everyone has going in there just makes it so hard to come in every day. Not only that, the management is so unprofessional, like when they decide to gossip about eachothers lives that they're so involved in rather than helping the restaurant run alittle smoother. Or even when the management hangs out with the staff outside of work and flaunts naked pictures of eachother!! Basically, I'm glad I'm out of there.

So for the rest of this week starting yesterday, I plan on getting all my shit done that I've set aside for god knows how long and then party my pants off until friday. THEN, Doug and I are going to visit his parents! He keeps talking it up so much now I can't wait either!! I guess they have an entirely remodeled house with a nice pool in Yakima!! I just want to do something with him rather than drink and sleep like we do most of the time we spend together. It will definitely be nice. GOD, after all the drama that happened between me and Doug (by which neither of us caused), I can say that I'm so fucking happy to be in his arms. I've gone bonkers with men lately and he is the only one that doesn't drive me completely nuts. It's really a normal relationship that we have and its so refreshing too! He's pretty much like a best friend to me, on another level of course. haha, ok I'll stop ranting about my Douglas :-)

Anywho, Pam seems to be getting better, now that she knows shes going to be behind bars eventually and she lost her kids and almost the man of her life. SHE IS SO DAMN LUCKY SHE HAS A GUY LIKE MY DAD!! He has been there for her and her children, supporting them 100%. I hope she realizes that. I'm still pissed at her. I'm not even quite sure how to approach her because I wouldn't really know what to say, at least in a nice way! Everything that shes been going through in her life recently has been negative. I don't want to be like, "so uh, how was losing your kids? you must have alooot of time on your hands now!" OR "Man, you should thank my dad for all the shit you put him through!" I REALLY WISH I COULD SAY THAT!!! I think I'll wait until she comes up to me I think. Regardless of when me and her interact, it's not going to be pretty.

alright, I'm going to pass out if I don't start moving more than just my fingers! Until next time...

TATA!

10 Minutes

I figure I would update my life and whats been going on since alot has lately. FOR ONE, I'm no longer a single lady!! I know pretty crazy right? But I found a guy that I believe can really make me happy for the time being. I say that because I don't believe any relationship I have will last until I turn 35. Speaking of age, I am now 21!! It's pretty awesome the fact that I can go anywhere and flip out my card and theres no more questioning, no more hesitation, no more YOUTH! It's funny because I have been hanging out with Doug, mah boyfriend, for about 4 months now and he really didn't come around until after I turned 21. Regardless, as far as life goes for me right now, I'm doing really well I think.

On the flip side, my dad isn't. His girlfriend went off the deep end. She now has a REALLY bad drinking problem, ironically very similar to how it was for my mother. She went to rehab for a month and craved alcohol the entire time. Now ever since she's been out she's been a raging alcoholic and a person no one really knows anymore. My dad has been just that to her kids and I'm so happy for that. The kids need parental guidance, if not from their own mother and father at least my dad can be there for them. His girlfriend got a police escort the other day to take the kids away from him and he's been sad ever since.

Anyway, I'll update on the story later, my ten minutes is up!