Well, it has been a while since I updated so I figured I was use today as an opportunity.
As of now, I'm struggling with finding the right job for me. It seems like every time I feel like I'm going in the right direction in finding the perfect job... there always seems to be a twist and becomes something I'm not into. I need to find something more. Something different. SOMETHING that can make me a living. I need a job. BAD.
I told myself I was going to wait on school for another year. I am definitely not stable enough to find peace and balance. It just sucks looking at my other friends that are my age and have everything given to them from their parents. Apartment bills, cell phone bills, new cars, going out money, paying for tuition... basically paying for their life so they don't have to worry about it. UGGHHH I will never get over that.
Today I realized what I wanted when a grow up and find my peace and balance. Wanna know? Guess you don't have a choice huh. WELL, here goes:
MIKAELA'S DREAM FUTURE
~ Get married on top of a mountain
~ Have twins with a maximum of 3-4 kids all together
~ Be able to take my family snow boarding and jet-skiing all within a close distance of where I will live
~ Have a hammock
~ And a tire swing
~ And a willow tree in the front yard
~ Build a tree fort
~ Pool and hot tub outside
~ Grow blackberry bushes and apple trees
~ Fireplace is a MUST
I know there's gotta be more... but MAN that would be a happy mikaela if that came true... OH! of course prince charming has gotta be taller than and be and handsome ;)
Speaking of men, YES I am still with Douglas.... everything seems to be going better actually. By better, I mean that things haven't really been all that great lately. Both of us are still pretty broke and I get very moody with the man. In a way I kind of feel bad but I really think he deserves it. He needs to get his butt in gear and since no one else is doing it for him, I figure I would start to take the initiative. We have kinda fought off and on for the past month up until about a week ago... I hate drama and fighting and to avoid all of that, it's even more drama to explain. For example, when he drinks I know there is going to be trouble. He gets excessive on everything... jealousy, anger, drunk and all together humiliatinggg! Not to mention, he just called me from the DMB concert and he is HAMMERED. Funny man. I have learned to get over it and at the same time act more like a girlfriend... its just kinda boring sometimes... arhgg.
Anyway, I am going out with the girls on this fine sunday night and must continue the story of my life at a later date!