So I realized something last night and I thought I'd LAY IT OUT.
Who knows what kind of person I want to be... who knows what career I want my life revolved around. But until then, I'm going to anxiously search for it. I want change. everyday. I'm not just going to sit around and wait for it anymore.
Last night was a productive night out. As the bars were winding down for the night, everyone started to make plans for the after party of course. (sometimes sundays are part of weekend too, apparently). ... ER let's back up a little bit.
I went to the bar and ran into alot of random people I knew that I never expected to be there. One was Scott Selby, former college fling for the year that I went to WSU. Crazy enough, he was there with a girl I knew and was acquainted with. She apparently had a thing for him and invited him out. That was alittle awkward.
I also ran into Phaedra while I was there. Me and her have had our differences and have parted ways in the past. Lately, we've come to terms that we're always going to be there for eachother no matter what.. Knowing that, we sat and caught up for a good time at the bars.
When it got time to leave, I went with phaedra to an after hours party, and boy were people partying there. Me and her took a step back from the partying and sat down and talked to eachother. She started telling me that she's finally putting her life in motion. She finally wants to get her degree and stop wasting her time thinking about it. I was shocked. I saw a completely transformed Phaedra. As I was telling her how happy I was for her, I started to cry. I know I get sensitive easily but I was genuinely happy for her. She is finally shooting for a goal and that is so inspiring.
As we stayed up all night talking about our futures, everyone continued to party til the sun came up. We finally got some sleep and slept into the afternoon. This whole day went by, but I feel better finally. I like having those conversations and acting upon them. So when I finally got home this afternoon, I figured I would take time to reflect on what it is that suits me best in my life. I've been taking career aptitude tests all day long trying to figure that out. I'm almost considering buying myself a package! haha, I don't care. I'm getting nutty but at least it's getting one step closer to where I ultimately want to be in life.
As for everyone else in my life, have fun going out tonight... cuz I'm not coming.