New rule of thumb for me. I feel like a monster, like that angry landlord lady that wears the rollers in her hair with her night gown during the day time. Or like the sad monkey that was the the only one out of the bunch who didn't get a banana and had to watch all the other monkeys enjoy theirs right in front of him! I feel like the nice guy that went for the girl when she ended going for the a$$hole. I feel like a tall person in China. haha so... my point. I've been hounding my friends for the money that they have owed me for almost a year now. I'm sick of it and I can't stop thinking about it. It's practically ruined our close friendship! Not saying that there are other factors... They just don't get it. They're off saving money for trips and buying new I-phones and I'm sitting here wanting to rip my fucking hair out because it's like they don't even care. GREWAWER!! (yay I just made up a new word!)
It's not just the fact that they owe me money either. It's how they are dealing with it. They put it off and put it off when they know I want my money back. I don't know if I should annoy the shit out of them or just straight up befriend them and give up. I'm over it... I want them to respect me. Give me a date... stop walking all over me. Make me feel like I have loyal and reliable friends. But nope, this whole thing is driving all of us further and further apart like they don't care. In order to salvage what our friendship had they really need to pay me back. I want to become close with them like I once was but at the same time, why would I want to continue to be friends with these girls who have put me off and don't respect me? All I see on their faces is dollar signs!! It's frustrating and I hate it. I don't want to spend any further time thinking about it. I just think it's rude they way they are dealing with it... not once have they gone to me and said "hey mik, I know it's been a while since I've owed you money. I plan on paying you back though!! Here's how I plan on doing it "___" and I will pay by (this) date. I'm sorry I've put such a burden on you. I know you could really use the money bud"
If they said that to me every week, I wouldn't blow up like this but instead they let it boil up to the point where one little thing will just set me off! grrr... I'm tense. Frustrated. I need to let some steam out now... HELLO gym.