Wandering, Pondering, And GOSSIP

Girls night tonight. Gossip.. remembering the unremembered..

This weekend was full of fun.. yet still bad decisions. I'm not quite sure how to put how my weekend went. It was sort of a blur. It helped me wake up for a minute though and put my life into more perspective, hence why I'm sitting here writing. Julia spent the whole day with me just hangin out and talking about whatever. Cailey joined in on the girls day later. We talked about what most best friends talk about... boys and such. One issue I haven't let down lately is how most of my friends are conveniently in relationships while the rest are on life overload and don't have time for friends or significant others for that matter. Here I am, without either of the two winter tendencies and I'm wondering what I can do to change it. It seems like for the past few years, I have wrote different blogs don't get me wrong, but they all seem to relate to one thing: Me being lost. I realized I'm never going to think my life is complete until I go back to school. I've come to terms with that. Now I just need to get my ass into action! Please let this blog motivate me tomorrow. I want to be a better person SO BAD.

One productive thing I did this weekend involved swimming! That's right, I pulled out the old polo swimsuit and shiny silicon swim cap with my new goggles and jumped in the water for the first time since the SUMMER. Thanks Michael for your ambition to make it happen. I have put up excuses for everything bad I've done in my life, or all the good things I haven't done for that matter, and I now need to face it: I'm being a loser. No wonder I have no boyfriend. I need to get this life to start shakin. I am craving change I suppose. I'm bored with my life and I need to get some umf to change it. Hopefully, all this words won't end up biting me in the arnse.

My brother came home today and was talking about his crazy, week-long trip to Chicago, then Washington D.C., then New York, then back to Chicago. He met with billionares, shared his company with them and now has the east side of the United States ADORING him. Even the fuckin flight attendants apparently! Maybe this is where all this talk is coming from. This whole day has made me think, ponder about what my next step should be.

Maybe this time I'll figure it out, maybe I won't but no matter what... I'm sure I'll be around for another update in the near future. Ta Ta yesterday... hello to the unknown future.

Mikaela "the wandering bird"

Self Defining -> Self Expression

Who are we anyway? Isn't that the big question we ask ourselves several times throughout our lives? All I know is Who I am is the possibility of who I can become. However I may choose to do that will bring out beauty, completion, and inspiration for those around me. I turned yet another page in my life. It's a new year. Time to grow up alittle more. I want each year that comes to be better than the last. This year I want to stay focused on formulating a mixture of good productive things in my life. I want to FEEL good waking up every day. I am going to learn that 2 beers is better than 8. I am going to take one extra step to get me that much farther, even if my feet are blistering, bruised and broken. I want to show everyone who I am and what I'm all about. So move me, lift me up, take me to the sky where there's no limits... nothing less. I want it all in the palm of my hands. Is that too much to ask for??

This Saturday, TOMORROW, I'm taking the Self Expression and Leadership Program. I'm serious. I need to get my mind in gear... my brain needs to be trained for whats to come in the series of games and obstacles I like to call life. Lets go find mikaela...

OH.. new job... LUCKY STRIKE. lovin it.