The next couple of days will be useless for me that doesn't involve what I'm about to experience in less than two weeks. I have completely devoured my thoughts on anticipating how my life will be. I'm re-living what burning man felt like for the first time last year in my head. I had become a new person with a new outlook on life and was no longer chained to reality's shackles. I felt like I could do anything and not be afraid anymore. Somewhere along the road last year I seemed to have lost that feeling because now as the burn is coming closer I can feel myself changing. I just can't freakin wait.
As for the last couple of months go, it's been quite nice. I really can't complain besides the fact that work has been kinda slow with the nice weather and all. I haven't been boating as much because I have done that nonstop, all summer long for the past three years and there are alot of other things about Seattle in the summer time that I haven't walked upon. I must say, I am alittle disappointed that I haven't been more active lately. No big hikes or long swims this summer. However, I did try rafting down the river the other day which was so much fun. I've been trying to keep my relationships minimized to just my close friends and no other randoms like that social butterfly I have been known to be in the past. I've been singing alot more. Something about being on stage and singing karaoke is just a blast for me. It's not really the attention I go after (however I can't lie I don't mind it) but its just the feeling of what all the musical artists talk about when they are up on stage. It's fun and fearless to me now. I love it.
I met a guy for the first time this summer. I have been going the whole summer with no sex, no kisses, not even an intimate touch. I chose to be that way though, without really knowing it. I don't really pursue guys I may be into when they are into me, and I just didn't want to bear the drama that seems to tag along to relationships that I've observed. So I stayed on the sidelines all summer, observing these bickering, gruesome fights that people call being a part of a relationship and went on with my single independence. Then out of no where, a young Israli man came to me with no fear and an endless amount of effort and persistence to get to know me better. I have kept my walls up and not shown near enough as much interest as he is showing me but he definitely is growing on me. I wonder why I get so closed off when someone tries to get so close? hmmmm... oh wait... now I know. hah.
Anton is coming back tomorrow HALLELUJAH!! Once he gets here, preparation for the burn is going to be bumped up a few notches that is for sure. We now have 10 people coming along to experience the burn with us and a sick camper van along with the astro van that will comfortably fit all of us in just fine. Oh man, I just can't wait to see the day.
Cheers to summer 2009