"You're not moving fast enough!"

Why does it feel like life keeps telling me that? Do you ever feel like no matter how fast you run, you still haven't moved an inch? That's how I feel. I have a terrible conscience I think. I just want to conquer the world and all the problems that surround it!! I hate feeling like my head is going to blow up from worrying about the next step I need to take.

I started to work out today to relieve myself from those problems. I plan on keeping a nice pattern of working out. I feel like if I can do that, I can do anything! Keep myself focused on working out, then I can stay focused on my problems without running, solve them, then never have to worry about it again! yeahha.

My realization of the day is who gravitates towards me. Lately, it definitely hasn't been some of the girls that I work with. I would never think of saying it to their face but to be quite honest, some of the girls I work with are whores. They sleep around alllll the time, and the guys are mostly the customers that come into our restaurant. Their behavior is just so highschool that it honestly disgusts me. YET, everyone loves the gossip they bring to the table about the guy they screwed with the night before. EW. I'm going to admit, I'm an open person but I do also have a life outside of the Rock Bottom and not everyone that I work with has to be involved in my life. Lately, I have realized to keep my mouth shut on my opinions and whats going on in my personal life. They can't use it against otherwise. Funny how I enjoy about 90% of the guys that work there as opposed about 40% of the girls that work there. The guys just stay out of the drama or just laugh when its brought up, but they are much more fun to talk to and be around. I feel like I have to fake myself to act the way they do!!

I have to mention that there is this guy I met at Rock Bottom, who comes in all the time since I've worked there. He's cute, aliiiittle too gangster or whatever you must call it to me, but is completely genuine. He has alot of manners and has a great personality!! I think I have a crush on him. I have kissed him and cuddled with him but thats it. He told me he likes me alot too... and I'm thinking he's hoping for me to be his girlfriend. I don't know though. I'm kind of steering away from him but he keeps following so we'll see where this goes. ahh the anticipation.

Not only him has been interested in me lately but I've been getting hit on from all directions of men! No joke. It's nice to be single, young and attractive thats for sure!! haha.

I'm off to relieve this headache I have recently acquired, probably from typing too much. Update more later.

Miki

Mood: Better, refreshed, relieved the day is over :)
Wanting: This headache to go away and cheesecake upstairs
Song: Papa Roach "Forever"
Quote: From one of the whores at Rock Bottom: "I'll get whatever I can take"