There are a few situations I have found myself in lately. Between new friends and my interests, I've been pulled in different directions and started to discover ME and what I stand by. For one, I've realized I have had it SUPER easy with the excellent people I've been around the last couple years. Some are smarter, more mature than me. I've felt more like the lil pup in some of my relationships with my close ones because I have so much to learn from them. I take account of everything they say because I know they mean it and have worth to even have said it. They tend to bring happiness and confidence in controlling life the way you want it to be. Loving you strong, feeding my soul.
However, the tables have turned.
I'm realizing I have a gift from what I've learned in this life thus far. I've met outrageously talented and creative-minded people that are so at peace with themselves. They truly define LLL (Life, Love, and Laughter).
On the other hand...
I have met some people lately that get easily stressed out and has negativity and materialism everywhere they breathe. It hurts because I find myself acting the same way; eating into all the drama that acclimates around them. I literally have to grab my scalp to clear my head of those double-crossed thoughts just to not let them take the best of me. And I feel like it's all because they've been brainwashed and exposed to this world, that they would even admit they hate as well, take over them. They become it.. maybe they know no other way or they choose misery over pleasure. Who knows? I just know it can't be me.
Not saying it's their fault because I'm sitting in the middle of it, but maybe there is a way to teach them what I once was blinded from. Shit, I know I got a LONG way before I can say I'm where I want to be. I'm not a saint, but maybe someday I can be something close to it.
Furthermore, I've decided I shall write whatever comes to my head sporadically at the moment to let it all out for the air to absorb so my head shall be free... weeee
Things, thinking, fake smiling, drama ma ma, realizing, dreaming what I'm not, Bird disperse, passion drifting, brainstorming, perception deception, thinking, wanting it and then not wanting it, StiLL standing STILL.
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